1/1/2023 0 Comments People without inner monologue![]() ![]() I can’t imagine someone not having an inner self to process thoughts with. I’ve had to learn to do this with my wife. ![]() Too often we find someone not agreeing with us being a point of conflict instead of trying to find out why they do things a certain way. finding out why people think they way they do can be a very interesting adventure. But I’ve found this to be a point of interest. Yes, it does freak me out to find out that people think differently than I do. I guess it really isn’t a monologue as much as it is thinking out loud and processing it as it happens (kinda like this post). I find if I don’t empty my thoughts down on paper I get really depressed unable to handle what life throws at me. Now, I use Day One to output what is in my head - I have thousands and thousands of entries (quite a few are more than 4 pages, some 15 pages). Kept masses of handwritten journals as a kid growing up. I have a lot going on in my head so I always had to write it down to keep from getting stressed. I talk with myself all the time, but not as a second person, as one person thinking. something we can tuck away and consult again when it would come in handy! It would be so great if that could show up along with some explanation of how we got there. It's not easy, even if sometimes our ability to get there just arrives again with a next morning or evening, -and mysteriously at that. I admire you for working so hard to retain and/or regain better functionality and comfort inside your own self. After all how much can it matter whether I put the blue fabrics away this afternoon or leave them out in case I might want to paw through some of them again tomorrow for some other project I'm working on. Once in awhile I realize a decision is not necessary because it doesn't matter whether I choose this, that or stay parked at the fork in the road. It doesn't resolve my indecision when that is caused by conflicting feelings, but it gets some oxygen into my brain and distracts me from the idea that I even have "to decide" about whatever I'm conflicted over. and in the meantime I go get some exercise. Sometimes I just throw up my hands and visualize putting my addled head on a shelf to chill out for awhile. even when we're aware that how we feel should probably not be guiding decisions to act. Our human feelings are always valid but it can be really difficult to apply rational brakes on them sometimes. been there, have had to work hard sometimes not to get back there. It is a struggle to deal with alternating depression and anxiety. ![]()
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